incubation / maturation

the next chapter of my life started today: first 'good job' after college.

i'm not a teen loitering at the mall anymore. 

i'm not spending quarters upon quarters in the arcade anymore.

i'm not drooling in my books studying for finals anymore.

i'm not partying all night anymore.

no turning back. 

 for the past month i've been unemployed relying on prayers and photo shoots for survival.

it's as if i've been crossing a pond with unsturdy stepping stones as a path. i've got a lot of things going good for me. however, i'm still a human being. i'm not invincible to the variables of life.

my faith: God, devo's, my Celebration family, my close friends, my parents, and music have really helped me to keep my sanity.

i worked out a lot during the off month... although i did get complacent in doing nothing [the price is right!] , i attempted to fill this 'empty schedule' as much as possible. I swam laps at JU pool about 4-5x week. worked out about 3-5x week. and played disc golf about 2-3x week. knowing that my new job was coming up... it was truly awesome to just chill and treat the time in between jobs as a vacation from life. if only my cell phone was off it would have been a renaissance much like the break i took from facebook in august. [ THAT was awesome].

In this economy i consider myself to be super blessed to have such a high paying job with an awesome company^✝. the position that I have is called a Short Sale Negotiator for Bank of America. I feel great about this position since I'm truly going to be helping people - preventing foreclosure.

for whatever reason, i've been feeling nervous, anxious, scared to start the job. my training is 8-5 so i decided to go to a men's breakfast at my church at 7am to start this chapter/job/day/week off on a good foot. The message was about putting on the armor of God. also from ephesians 6: 5-6 "work with obedience not with eyeservice". I really needed to hear that because I give good eyeservice when I'm at work. haha. i guess the nervousness was me not wanting to 'drop the ball' on this job... of the millions of unemployed Americans I've been given this rare opportunity that I don't want to thwart by my own actions.....  i want to give 100% on this one.... not 75%.

the job is going to have continental breakfast daily through training and free lunch all week.... how nuts is that!??!

I feel that I'm really in a good place right now.

having woke up so early this morning.... men's breakfast.... non-eventful training ... disc golf... gym...ironing... and now blogging.... i'm super exhausted at QUARTER TIL 11. deng. gotta shake last month off of me.

to be continued...